Go Back to a Place Much Simpler Than This

This song takes me back to a really rough time in my "relationship". There were about 3 different fails going on at once, each more serious than the next. But it always seems like im starting over, because nothing's ever what it's meant to be, or what it appears its meant to be. Its all a MIRAGE.

Happy Birthday Jenny Snyder. You will always be missed. Its amazing how life can be snatched from under your feet so quickly. And no one seems to appreciate the joys life brings. That's why I try to live stress-free, and incorporate laughter and happiness into each of my days. Sadly today seems to be an exception.

SN: Yesterday I came in my dorm to find a note on all the 4th floor bathrooms saying that due to pipeline problems we were asked to refrain from using OUR OWN BATHROOMS but to feel free to use those on other floors. WTF if i was 3rd, 2nd or 1st floor I would lock my shyt. HELLL NOO you can't come in MY bathroom and use MY tissue, and MY shower. I would go across the street to my friends dorm before I did that.

BTW: My phone is off again. smh.

So i've been thinking about how when i read Revelations in the Bible, my Bible disappeared. Like legit came up missing, haven't seen it since and i'm still a little upset cuz it was my moms. But my aunty said that all the natural disasters and things that have been happening are a sign of the end of the world. Like at first I didn't believe that. Being Agnostic I don't believe much (except that the Illuminati more than likely exists and that people really do behave as their zodiac signs say they do). But anyways, if the world ends in 2012 why would you want to die lonely? No one wants commitment nowadays I just don't understand, and maybe I'm just delusional, or more mature than I should be for a young college student in the city, but I know what I want and I can't seem to be able to find it.

P.S My biggest fear (besides death), is being used by someone I care about. Cuz I never did anything to hurt anyone, so why would anyone want to hurt me?

P.P.S I prefer not to live in someone's shadow.